| I'm good with computers... no, fuck it, i'm fucking GREAT with computers... the last timei had a fishy feeling about my now ex i found out she was seeing someone else by hacking her email account and Myspace accounts... so earlier today i start getting another weird feeling.... I've gotten this feeling 4 times now in my entire life... 2x when my first real girlfriend cheated on me (i got them the day before), 1x when I hacked my ex's comp. (that's why i hacked it) and 1x earlier today. I have, up until this point, assumed that all is well with us, but whn i got the feeling of doom fast-apporaching, i knew i had been wrong all along. So i did it again. I hacked a myspace account and email account... and lo and behold, i hit the gold. My current (for the time being) girlfriend is Bi... i'm fully aware of that. But i was surprised to see the things that have been going on when i hacked her Myspace... Not only was she "dating" a girl named Kylene, but noone, aside from her family and our mutual friends, knew i existed... Her story to every inquiry was that she occasionally spoke to her ex (who she left to be with me), but other than that she was totally available. I didnt exist, for all intents and purposes.
So right now i'm about to fucking loose it. Thank God i'm in another state, because i would fucking murder her, tonight. But not in her sleep... i want her eyes to stare up at me in terror and disbelief as i slowly drain the life from her beautiful Blue/green orbs...
Hell hath no fury as that of a broken lover...
Fuck this... if you didnt read my last one, now would be a good time to laugh... as if i didnt feel lonely enough already.
fuck this.
-allen |